You know… it is not until you actually make a change, that the true depth and breadth of that change slaps you in the face. Its true with any change, jobs, homes, cars… anything.
The true dimensions of the change are not known until the change takes place. For instance, you have purchased/rented a new home… you can’ t how many boxes it will take to pack your things from the old place, until you actually start packing. And if you’re like me, you always underestimate your need.
The same thing is true when you make a change to your relationship. You don’t realize all the things that you will be missing, or gaining until the change happens. In a tumultuous environment the change can be one of peace and serenity you’ve not know for a long time. It can also bring up feelings you didn’t realize you had… and for some strange reason – the end of a relationship always has you second guessing as you only remember the good things for a while. Its not for a bit that your reasoning actually returns and you become secure in the choices you have made.
You guys know, I haven’t been able to work in the last few years… both health concerns and a child with SED made that a virtual impossibility. Now, I am responsible for only myself… there is nothing stopping me from taking my chances in the job world yet again. This is a huge change for me, and will take some getting used to as time passes.
I know I’ll be fine – it’s just different and for me a little scary. But, isn’t any change different and scary? We are human after all… and by definition, we are creatures of habit. We do not like change. We like things to be comfortable, predictable, and safe.
What changes are you making in your life that are making you uncomfortable?